Monday, April 11, 2011

Ultrasound #2 - Bittersweet with a dose of anger and a dash of self-pity

Today at our ultrasound we found out that Baby A died last week.  He/she did not have a heartbeat and it was measuring a week behind.  Baby B looked good measuring at 7 weeks 5 days old with a heartbeat of 150 bpm which is exactly where the baby should be.  Our next ultrasound is on April 27th. 

Today I don't feel like pouring my heart out to the whole blogging world and beyond.  The title of my post tells enough how we are feeling.

20 comments:

Melody Lietzau said...

Oh sweetie! There are no words. praying and walking with you.

Pat Orr said...

This is a hard loss and hard to understand. Praying for an extra dose of God's grace on you...and us. So glad to hear that Baby B is doing well. Love you so much.

Lacie said...

Being angry and sad over the loss of your baby is not sel-pity. I am so very, very sorry. More than you could know.

Adam and Julia said...

i am so sorry honey. Words can not express what you are going through right now. Praying for you and your baby.

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry Elizabeth! Praying for you guys.

Diane said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for you guys as you grieve the loss of your precious little one.

Angelwingsbaby said...

I was so sorry to read this, my heart is aching for you.You are in my thoughts and prayers.

barb said...

Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Jen said...

I'm so sorry!!! You are grieving the loss of your baby and dream... no self pity there!!!! Anger is part of the grieving process- completely normal and healthy!!!

Sending prayers!!!

Ginny said...

I'm so sorry for you loss. It's not self-pity, but a normal reaction. I am continuing to pray for baby B and your family. Glad to hear baby b is doing well.

Christina said...

Oh Elizabeth, I'm so sorry to hear that one didn't make it. Bittersweet it is.

Britney said...

I, too, am very sorry. ; ( I know this is not unusual, but I'm sure doesn't hurt any less. Perhaps you can find some way of honoring this lost baby through the name you give the one who remains. A friend of mine also had twins and lost one, and they named their son "Thomas," which means "twin."

Krisa said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Praying for you....

JenJen said...

I'm so sorry. Hugs.

Tina said...

Sending you many hugs and echoing the statement that sadness over loss is.not self+pity. I am happy that Baby B is thriving.

Anonymous said...

Hey Elizabeth...I cannot begin to imagine what you guys have/are going through...but just wanted to send my thoughts to you as well. I'll continue to pray for your baby B also and for you guys to find peace and joy in this continued pregnancy :)
Krisse

Anonymous said...

We're so sorry. We'll continue to pray for Baby B and will pray for comfort as well.

--Melinda

Aaron and Jennifer said...

I'm sad to hear that you lost one of of your babies, but praising God that his/her sibling is continuing to thrive.

Angela said...

Praying for you both! Very sorry!

Paula said...

Your honesty is a blessing to everyone who hopes for your family. Hope the imprecatory Psalms give you the feeling of some "room". Praying and groaning. My heart is with and for you all.

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