Sunday, February 14, 2010

Love is an ever-fixèd mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken

Today I am so thankful for my sweetie.  We have been married for almost seven years and have been through so many amazing adventures, times of saddness and loss, and difficult uncertanty.  God has walked with us through it all.  Most recently I had laparoscopy surgery because our doctor believed that I had endometriosis and felt that we might still have a chance to conceive naturally.  The surgery revealed that I did not have endometriosis (good) but instead I have abnormal tubes that are contorted and blocked (bad).  Only 2% of women have this, it is not possible to fix, and it means that if we conceive naturally it would be nothing short of a miracle.  We are glad to finally (after six years of having "unexplained infertility") have a diagnosis.  We have prayed specifically for this kind of closure.  The fact that we are so far along in the adoption process has helped bring some hope and comfort in the saddness of this news.  I am glad that Dan and I are a couple that draw closer to each other in times of difficulty rather than letting hard times push us apart.  The lord has been so gracious to us in that. 

Part of our Valentine's message at Grace today came from Luke 11 where Luke recalls a discussion between Jesus and his disciples on prayer:
 9"So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
 11"Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"
 So today with my parents we prayed to our Father that he would give Dan and I "good things":  hope for a family in the near future, joy in the midst of difficulty, a peaceful heart free of bitterness, patience that surpasses understanding, and trust in the wisdom and goodness of a loving God. 

Happy Valentine's Day to you all!  I leave you with one of my favorite love poems:

Sonnet 116 (William Shakespeare)
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixèd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

2 comments:

Anna Nussio said...

Thank you for sharing. I am grateful that you have answers; I know, too, if from different reasons, how much relief can come from answers that we once may have conceived as painful.

My spiritual path is different from yours, but our hearts long for the same things. And after a lifetime of friendship heartfelt, I hope you know that when I say I will pray for your family to receive these good things, it is deeply offered with love for you and your growing family. And with the conviction of knowing what a great parent you will be.

I am so happy for you and Dan and your wonderful partnership. Big hugs!
XOXO

Aaron and Jennifer said...

Sweet post. I know where you're coming from...Aaron and I are in the same place. :)

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