I am having an emotional crisis so I put Lena in the crib with juice and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and I'm lying on the bed eating chocolate that I am not supposed to be eating. I thought I had it all under control. I got her up from her nap and made her a juice and snack and directed her towards her toys so I could clean up the messy kitchen and make Dan dinner. And then she dumped her juice on the living room carpet, cried, and wouldn't let go of my legs.
Help! My house is a disaster, I am STILL cramping from the transfer almost a full week later, I am STILL seething from having to drive 4.5 hours round trip today to Dr. K's for a simple blood draw for estrogen levels because insurance won't pay and the local lab wanted $350 for the test, the maddening "what if" crazies have begun to spin in my head, the PIO shots are really starting to be a pain in my butt - literally (bruises, welts, knots, rashes, and itching), and to top it all off I start my new job tomorrow. Welcome to my pity party. This is my fourth FET and days 7-10 are the toughest to endure, ALWAYS! The logical woman inside my head is telling me to sit down, make a list, and prioritize. She is telling me, "Everything doesn't have to be perfect right now." But I hate admitting when I am defeated and I totally feel that way right now. I don't even know how to finish this post. I am waving the white flag. I am sure I will re-read this at some point in the future and laugh at how dramatic I became over spilled juice. I blame the PIO. Those wicked little hormones...
FYI: 7dp5dt means 7 days post 5 day transfer
UPDATE:
I have the best husband EVER! He came home after working a 10 hour shift. He brought dinner and sent me up to bed. He fed Lena, took her to the park, gave her a bath and then put her to bed. And when I got up this morning I discovered that he stayed up late to clean the entire kitchen. I went to my first day as a second grade homeschool co-op teacher and it went so well and I LOVED it! Lena had a great day visiting Grandma and Grandpa while I was at work. So thankful tonight for a loving and thoughtful husband and the prayers and support of my family and friends.
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7 comments:
Hang in there! (Hugs!)
Praying for you.
Big hugs! The wait is always hard and those hormones are the worst! Praying for a positive!
:) Sorry it's been a hard day. Continuing to pray for you.
Yea for a new job!
I agree, those last few days are the hardest. Praying for you! And praying for happy news!!!
OH....Im sorry. I have been there. but hey...constant cramping is good....goood....good. I only had that on my successful cycles.....hoping it means you have little one(s) snuggling in!!! Do you ever POAS before blood test? I always cheated. And...wouldn't a normal preg test be covered by insurance? Mine always were. The lab and your insurance don't need to know these are from ART. Sorry...maybe the drive can be your time to listen to your favorite music...or splurge and buy an audio book and lose yourself in someone else's story.
Hang in there. Ony a few more days.
kd
Oh man, I have those days every now and then and can't even blame them on hormones. Hope your day is better today!
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